Walking between the Worlds: Feb 13, 2009 Shot gut

My favorite people

My bandmate
Larry - a genius, a technical writer, a father, and just all around great guy
My brother
My brother is an avid ballroom dancer, and this article is about his group in Prescott with a photo and a lot of quotes from him.
My maestro
one of the most successful,and most helpful, vocal and guitar instructors in the United States who has taught pop, rock, blues, hard rock, alternative, punk, emo, country, Latin and avant-guard styles.
My sister the Sister
My sister, a Dominican sister, creates a noted blog

Recently read

Philip Pullman: His Dark Materials
Still adding 2009, and going in a random order... I was very happy to read this triology... definitely a "I can't put it down" type of adventure, although I didn't like the ending... I won't spoil it for you. Would highly recommend to all fantasy fans. The Church portrayal didn't bother me, any more than did the portrayal of most grownups as being immature and hopelessly incompetent. It was all part of the story!
Sherry Argon: Why Men Love Bitches
A book I read in 2009 during my "read about dating" phase. This was the first book I picked up after Love: When It Hurts Too Much to Let Go by Susan Forward and Craig Buck which I read for a friend but found helpful, so I decided to dip into the dating book genre. I picked this up in the airport! It is very entertainingly written and nicely organized, with sensible advice. It isn't so much about being "a bitch" but more about having healthy boundaries. This is one I would loan out to a friend -- I think it's pretty good advice overall. (****)
Steve Hodel : Most evil : Avenger, Zodiac, and the further serial murders of Dr. George Hill Hodel
Written by his son, this story puts together a meticulous case file on why George Hill Hodel is most likely the Zodiac killer. Good true crime story, very detailed, with an interesting side that it was written by the son of the alleged killer, who was never brought to justice. I would've liked a little more insight into Steve Hodel and a little less of the handwriting analysis detail, but overall very fascinating. I had read of the unsolved killings and Steve Hodel makes a good case that his father was actually the killer. (****)
Mario Acevedo: X-rated Blood Suckers
a vampire noir mystery... this is the second of the series... the writing improves half way through. I picked it up in the store and started reading in the middle -- that's how I got hooked. Pretty entertaining and if the writing style of the next one matches or exceeds this one, I might read more. But on the whole I think the whole vampire as detective thing could "pale" on me (sorry for the pun) pretty easily. The sex is sort of sexy, the mystery is sort of interesting, the characters are sort of boring. The most interesting features to me -- the older and more experienced vampire known as Coyote, the mysterious vampire organization "Araneum" who communicated with Felix the main character by bird, were drowned out by a cast of sleezy cardboard villians, ex-porn-stars, and Felix's tepid and unfulfilling human romantic interest. Felix spends most of the novel escaping assasination attempts which disguises the vapid plotting and the blase twin mysteries (who or what is behind the human-vampire collusion that the Araneum wants stopped and who or what killed Roxy Bronze along with an ever increasing body count of victims). On the other hand, I am very interested in Coyote and even came to like Felix a bit, although, honestly, he was kinda dumb and not very hot. The use of super powers can make a detective very boring....
Sharyn McCrumb: Highland Laddie Gone
Enjoyable and wry murder mystery set at a Highland Games festival. I love the set up, the characters, the writing style... a little old fashioned of a writing style but not too verbose. A little romance, a little humor, a cast of interesting characters. This is an early McCrumb and she got better in some of her later books, but it is still a super fun read.
Sharyn McCrumb: If Ever I Return, Pretty Peggy-O
As always good readable mystery from Sharyn McCrumb. (****)
David Zinczenko: The Abs Diet for Women: The Six-Week Plan to Flatten Your Belly and Firm Up Your Body for Life
Great ideas from Men's Health magazine... adapted specificall for women's life styles and needs. (****)
Gary Chapman: The Five Love Languages for Singles (Chapman, Gary)
Helpful but not as in depth as I would've liked!
Marilu Henner: Wear Your Life Well: Use What You Have to Get What You Want
Inspriational and informative! (****)
Dominick Dunne: Justice: Crimes, Trials, and Punishments
Listened to in audio book form. This was read by Dominick Dunne himself which GREATLY enhanced enjoyability. Dunne has a great voice -- both physically and stylistically. This was a collection of article written about trials he has covered (mostly for Vanity Fair I gathered) starting with the first sad trial of the killer of his own daughter -- who was acquited and still is free. He has channeled his rage into positive action and helped many people, notably the mother of Martha Moxley, whose case went unsolved for almost 20 years, but whose killer is now behind bars. The book highlights the different ways the justice system works for the wealthy and the indigent, and is sprinkled not only with personalities and name dropping, but also with honesty, forth-right and couragous pronouncements, and willingness to take a risk for what Dominick Dunne sees as Justice. He would indeed be a great dinner guest! Highly recommended to true crime buffs, people who love great writing styles, people concerned about social justice, people with a streak of loving gossip (not me, giggle), and any one who loves a good, gripping true story of any kind! (*****)

February 13, 2009

Feb 13, 2009 Shot gut

Late Jan. 1990 -

on the phone with Dad to find out
if he knows, if he knows
why, why
I checked off every answer yes but one
and down the stairs
comes a fresh faced child
gashes bleeding

we hid all the razors and sharp objects
she wrote the letters and gave away everything

***

2009

Dad, you've been dead a while now.
Mom will be 2 years tomorrow.
I don't count your time.

***
Feb 13, 1990

I remember the call.

Images:
my daughter in shackles
my daugher in the back of a cop car
my daughter in the bathroom stall cutting
the joint she had?

where could she have gotten that?

***

late Feb. 1990

Drivin' the truck down to Tuscon
Rose Marie's gettin out tonight
Oh yah SunRain and Edna got a party goin
Pizza beer and boys
For you and me,

Everything's gonna be all right!

Phone rings at Edna's.
I don't know how I know
the voice on the other end of the phone is right.
"If you don't put your duaghter in treatment,

SHE WILL DIE."

baby on one couch
i'm on the other

all night "NO NO Don't MAKE ME GOOOOO"

How I had the strength, I still don't know.

March 3, 1990

a circle of chairs
in a church meeting hall
no body looks like me --
all dressed up...
motorcycle man
sharing across the circle, sez
"when I have feelings,
I have a hard time reaching out"

song goes in my head
"I'm Coming Home"

I ask for help.
I get meeting lists,
phone numbers,
and an invite to coffee.

***

March 9, 1990

crazy ol' hippie boy!!!
Where's the pot??!?!?!

March 10, 1990

I NEED A MEETIN!

Feb 13, 2009

what are days but jewels?
the air is aquamarine, my tears are diamonds.

at work I can't think, distracted by
visions of the past
fresh but distant
like a favorite show
rewatched

I know what happens
but I still can't believe
WE'RE ALIVE

Images:
Daughter in gowns with honors in hand
Mom watching her from the wheelchair
We have the same look in our eyes

What are days but jewels?
smiles are citrine, losses are pearls

TO COME:
March 10, 2009
I will sit in a circle of chairs in a church meeting room
everyone looks like family

and I will say
Thank you NA

For my LIFE

What are days but jewels?
Stars do not shine in the day.
Blessed be thou, dark night of my soul.

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